Suicide Note from a Cockroach in a Low Income Housing Project

I hate the world

I am depress

I am deprive

I am deprave

I am ready to propose to the grave

Life is too complicated to proceed

Fate is the only medicine I need to feel good

Seriously Speaking

I am seriously seeking

the exit to leave this eerie existence

My resistance is low and will not frow

Rent control my ghost will haunt you

I hate the world

I am dejected

I am rejected

I am neglected and disrespected

ever since these damn liberals got elected

and corrected nothing really important

I am starving

I am no good at robbin

I have no ambitions

These damn housing projects

are responsible for my nervous condition

I hate you credit cards

Because of you there is a pain in my brain

Because of you all the minority groups

own a television set and will not let me sleep

at night watching the late late show at full blast

I hate the world

I hate the world

I hate the world

I am disgusted

I am totally busted

The Welfare department

will not handle my case

I am homesick for the past

when radios used to be a luxury

for the minority groups

and there were no such things as the late late show

Oh how I hate those damn

anti-poverty programs

All those electric appliances

are executing my people

If only the tenant knew

it was bad and destructive for them too

the world would be a better place

for everyone regardless of race

END THE WAR ON POVERTY NOW

before our race is erased from the face

of every place

We do not want to be

destroy diminish and finish forever america

I am hungry

My folks are hungry

My friends are hungry

Every member of our generation

is a victim of starvation

We are down and out without a future

to look forward to WE ARE THROUGH

I attend over ten funerals every day

I don’t have time to send my black

melancholy suit to the cleaners anymore

That is how bad the situation is

and all because all of a sudden

everybody wants to be somebody

This is ridiculous this is absurd

why should our race be erased to make

america a beautiful place for everyone but us

We are the real american

We was here before columbus

We was here before general electric

We was here before the ed sullivan show

We are older than adam and eve

Noah also took cockroaches into his ark

Why should we be denied coexistence???

Back in the old days

long before these housing projects

wrecked our civilization

cockroaches were strangers to starvation

and lived better than the pepsi generation

There was always enough to eat for everybody

Every day was a holiday in those days

Those were the days my friend

we thought will never end

We use to eat forever every day

Our problems were few

No bill collectors no internal revenue

Those were the days oh yes those were the days

The life expectancy

of a cockroach in those days

was ten times longer than it is today

Ten seconds to ten minutes is the new limit

These damn anti-poverty programs are to blame

Since they came the people are not the same

Today everyone can afford the price of DDT

DEATH IS JUST A SPRAY AWAY

the television commercial says

Everyone old enough to talk to being trained

to use these deadly weapons to wipe us out

THIS IS GENOCIDE

and what bothers me the most

is that nobody is protesting

No demonstrations no moratorium for our dead

Everybody is busy protesting this

Everybody is busy protesting that

Everybody is raising hell about air strikes

But nobody is saying a damn thing about the DDT strikes

Like nobody is wearing STOP THE DDT STRIKE buttons

I use to come

from a very large family

and now I am down

to my last second cousin-in-law

I have been married seven times

I have never been divorced

All my wives and husbands

are now resting in peace

None of them died from natural cause

They have all been fatal casualties

at the games the great society plays

This so-called civilization nation

has made a lonely man out of me

My insurance company

has informed me that they will not

insure another wife or husband I take

They think I am trying to make

a living out of this THEY ARE DEAD WRONG

I come from a good non-catholic

non-protestant non-jewish home

I have never read the holy bible

I will never red the holy bible

Cockroaches in their right minds

will never go near the holy bible

Bible reading is a dangerous mission

it’s like committing suicide to get to heaven

I once had this uncle

who was very religious

He read the good book all the time

One day he fell asleep reading

the twenty-third psalm and woke up

in the hereafter the following morning

The owner of the bible closed the book on him

I once knew this clairol lady

who threw salt and pepper on my people

and fed them to her pet hamster

I once knew this marlboro man

who decorated his ashtrays with my people

after putting his cigarettes out on them

I once knew this boy

who married the clairol lady

and gave birth to the marlboro man

His mission in life magazine

was to sell us gasoline in listerine bottles

If those are the kind of people

that go to heaven you can send me to hell lord

I want to be

a million miles away from humanity

with their vanity and profanity

and insanity preachers preaching survival

for them and the hell with everybody else

who cannot read the new york times

drink good booze have the wall street blues

hate discriminate castigate castrate

liquidate assassinate and instigate air pollution

oppose revolution that will put a conclusion

to confusion and welcome positive solutions

end false illusions of the beginning of time

I want to be a million miles away

from nickles and dimes and quarters

and dollars white collars bright collars

blue collars go screw yourself collars

millionaires carfares welfares nightmares

and all that neurotic psychotic idiotic

chaotic air of despair found everywhere

underwears of deception win the elections

If I have to sin to make this wish come true

I will start by saying: our father

which art in heaven FUCK YOU

My first wwife

lived a very short life

Tragedy came

separated our name

The first year

we started our atmosphere

she was ambused

by this retarded boy

who destroyed her pride

and swallowed her body

after she died

My second wife

lived a shorter life

When tragedy came

and separated our name

she was still a virgin

We were married in the afternoon

and somebody stepped on her

on our way to the honeymoon

My third wife

was taking a short-cut home

thru the kitchen sink

A homicidal maniac saw her

while taking a drink and turned on the hot water

My fourth wife

was a militant

She carried a knife

and was prepared to cut

anyone up

who threatened her life

She said to me

on our wedding night

I know I know

 Someday I have to go

but not without a fight

Before they kill me

I will have three or more on the floor

ready for the morgue

The following day

she passed away

on a crowded elevator

I warned her to beware

of those modern inventions

but she paid no attention

If she had used the stairs

she would still be

alive and well with me

My first husband

lost his sacred life

in a DDT strike

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12/29/11 at 12:43am